mountain tops or valleys and deserts

i want to be used by God at all times of the day and night. I want to be used to proclaim the goodness and the power of God and the Holy Spirit. I want to tell people there is hope. I was a boy who saw the world as dark and hopeless, I was a boy who awlays saw the cup as half full. BUt i serve a God who sees hope. I am becoming a man who sees a world with a hope. I am becoming a man and sees myself as worthy, and all this is because of God's grace towards my life and me. Looking back at some of my past events during my life, It amazes me what God did, and yet there are still many days i doubt that God will get me through trials and temptations. I am realizing it is very easy to dance at the top of a mountain, but when Jesus returns us to the valley and the desert will we still praise him with a resounding spirit and song?

We had to write down our trials and pains, and then we had to hear what God said and put his words into a song or poem. And so i am going to share them with you. there is three different poems, and the first poem someone here is going to try and turn it into a song! hope you enjoy the poems


My little boy dream dreams with me
Watch me as I love you
As a little babe I made you beautiful
Do not listen to the little things around you
Little babe hear my voice
Little babe what are your dreams?
What are your wishes?
I to have wishes I to have dreams
Little babe oh how I love you
Open your eyes your heavenly daddy is looking
Little babe have no fear I am holding you near
Little babe come near let me whisper in your ear
Hear the sounds of on the streets singing; for peace is near


You are my beloved
And you are mine
You were not rejected
You are being refined
Slow down and play to my rhythm
Slow down and play to my tune
Doesn’t matter what the worlds says, for I love you
Bring freedom
My daddy, my savior, my healer
My daddy, my friend, my companion

Let the kids run, let the kids dream
Let the girls dance, let the girls feel my romance
Let the churches resound in signing
Let the people roam the streets
Things you search for I have they have a key
Here is the key it is my heart
Turn the key and see my heart
I to have heard the cries of the children
I to have seen the teen moms
I to have seen the abusive fathers
I to have seen the empty classrooms
I to have seen the political churches
I to have seen the lost visions
I to have seen the lost dreams
I to have seen the pains and sorrows
I to have seen the tears
I to have seen the empty homes
I to have seen the orphans
I to see the widows
But look up what do you see?
Look up what do you see
That is me you see riding on the cloud
I did not leave, I did not forget
Now hand me the key, now give me your hopes and dreams
I am the restorer, I am the rebuilder
I am the king, I am he
I am Jesus

worship

Worship is not a concept, it is a verb!
Worship brings you into intimacy and relationship.
Worship is not a lifestyle, it is a relationship. In the relationship we pray, we worship in response to his presence, and we give it away.
Worship is not a lifestyle, because many times we do not live out the proper life.
Worship is not music, and music is not worship. If you are breathing then worship is designed for you.
“Follow the Lord where he wants you to go”
“One of the greatest forms of worship, is ones reverence to the Lord”
One can use God’s gifts without knowing him.
Greatest gift God can give us is he!
Worship the Lord, because you remember what he has done.
God I need your wisdom and revelation, we need the Holy Spirit!!
God always calls us to the mountain top, but returns us to the valley. What will you do in the valley?
God’s vision for us is secondary, and I his work in me us is primary!

today

today was another day of restoration and peace. Once again we talked about the love of God and what he has for all of us. Once again i want to continue to walk in confidence. I want to see my sisters marry men of God. I want to see my brother run into opposition and defeat it with God's help. I want my brother to regain his dreams and fulfill them. I want to be made into a great husband and father. I want to go into this world again restored and confident in my calling through God's grace and annointing. I want to sit next to my birth parents and family and show them hillary and tell them of all God has done in my life. I want to show them pictures of my family and how by giving me up God truly blessed me. I want to wait at God's altar and have him just love me.

hello again

Hi everyone, I am back! Sorry i been away from my blog for awhile. It is not because I hate writing, but I lost the my passion and I walked into a spiritual desert! "Therefore, behold, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness, and speak tenderly her." Hosea 2:14 I found myself forgetting that in all situations give thanks to God, which is not always easy to do. I felt the pressures of being away home and found myself questioning why I am here? But in reality i am here and i must remember that I chose to come here. I chose to take up my cross and follow him. I am sorry to you all for having a pity party for myself, because that is not who i am. I am a work in progress and i would appreciate it if you all would keep me uplifted in your prayers. I could use prayer daily for wisdom, strength, guidance, leadership, and willingness to be shaken.
thank you
love bri

I am about to get real personal. I am about to tell you all the things that cut me deeply over the years. These are not things to get pity for or for people to feel bad. But we are talking about the Father heart of God this week, and these are the lies that the Lord is going to heal and restore me from. We were supposed to write down things that should have never been said to me or anyone. So please be praying for me this week as God shows me how deeply he loves me.

I was told that I would never make it in college
I was told that I am lazy
I was told that I have no potential
I was told that I walk funny
I was told that I am scrawny
Told that I was a “nigger”
Told that I would never be a good parent
Told I would always be a cheater
Told I never did anything for myself
Told that I was spoiled and ungrateful
Told I would bring the family farm down
Told I was not good with my hands
Told I was not worthy enough
Told that I thought I was to prideful
Told that I mumbled
Told that I would never amount to anything
Told that I was abandoned
Told that I was not wanted
Told that certain people deserve better
Told that I would get let go in the end
Told that I would not be a great teacher
Told that I would never be a speaker
Told my family was not worthy
Told my family felt sorry for me
Told that I am no longer someones brother

mighty men

Where are the godly men? Where the David’s, the Paul’s, and the Isaiah of old? Where are the men who are going to shape this generation? When are we men going to rise up and take on the mission? Look at David's mighty men. We can do the same thing, because we serve the same God. I want to be might men, because I am tired of the devil kicking my butt. I am tired of the lies and the attacks. I had a picture of my brother and me sitting in a room and us being equipped with the armor of God. I picture him and me asking each other "are you ready?" Not ready for a battle, but for a war! I see us standing up and the doors being opened. I picture us standing and then walking out. Caleb, me, whoever chooses to fight are not alone. For we serve an omniscient, omnipotent, and omnipresent father. Hebrews 10:39 says "For we are not those who shrink back and are not destroyed, but those who have faith and preserve their souls." This is my prayer for my brother and the men of this country. I have a strong brother in Caleb Jon Zimmer, and i truly admire and love him. For 2 years Caleb challenged me to be a man, and to be the best. I miss him very much and i am excited for his journey. See Caleb has been hurt by many, but Caleb Zimmer does not shrink back, Caleb Zimmer is saved, and his soul is preserved! Caleb Zimmer, I know is doing just fine. I am so proud of him, and i know he is going to make echoes in this world. Caleb just step out of the water, be like the Caleb who went into the promise land with no doubt! For you are a mighty man, and you are wearing the full armor of God!