surrendering

so can i just say God restores all walls. Today we basically had an intervention for anyone to want healing. so today i went forward and everyone gathered around me. I told people that i wanted to be restored and i was getting burned out from carrying a huge load. The load was that i felt like i had to carry my siblings for the past 4 years because we were isolated because of our color. We experienced things that most people around us could not relate to so us children had to stick together. i especially felt guilty that i left abby for ywam because to her i have become her protector and best friend and i felt like i was abandoning her. I was scared that if i ever passed away who would be there to fight for them. I felt anger once again for adopting us because they set us up for persecution. But that was a lie from the devil. All a sudden people started praying for me and felt tears after tears fall out on the ground. All a sudden I felt like God said "brian i want to take this load from you, i want to be your siblings protector. He gave me an image of caleb, abby, and I and an angel was surrounding us with its wings saying you are protected. Then i got another image of my sister abby as a brand new babe, and God was the father holding her in her brand new baby blanket. All a sudden he kissed abby on the forehead and he said to me "brian i am abby's protector and i will watch over her now" All a sudden i felt God saying release them brian, release them. So one at a time i released my sister beth, then caleb, but i could not release abby. Then Jesus once again gave me the image of him holding abby, and all a sudden i got the strength and i said "lord i give you my best friend and the most precious thing i have in my life, and the holy spirit came upon me and i felt a peace that only heaven could bring. I know that caleb and abby are in my fathers care and that i can rest assure. I also forgave my parents and myself and i realized once again that my parents are my heroes! I do not have to be my siblings protector anymore because i have the Lord almighty holding my siblings in his hand. I truly believe God will use my family to touch lives throughout this world. For my family does not shrink back, and we are not destroyed. But we are the zimmers, and we are united and united we stand. We carry scars but are scars do not define us and shall not overcome us. I love you beth ann zimmer, i love you caleb jon zimmer, and i love you my beautiful sister, i love you my best friend, i love you my hero, i love you abby jo Zimmer