true peace

i am about to get real personal. My 8th grade year i received some of the most spiritual and emotional wounds of my life. We were talking about interracial marriages, and up to this point in my life i did not think anything of it. The teacher proposed the question and all a sudden people started answering the question, and some students said their parents wouldnt let them date people of color. Then another girl raised her hand and said that her grandma said she couldnt date me. See those things wouldnt be so bad and all but i was the only minority in that classroom and one of the few in the school. Little would i know that hearing those words would scar me up to well about last night. You see after that point i became semi-fearful not only of white fathers but also white women. Sure i dated here and there but i never felt safe i always felt like i had to put on a show because I already was considered less. Those scars haunted me until last night and today when i spoke about the hurt i held in my heart. Today i shared that story with my whole group and the peace of God came over me. You see i have met an amazing girl who i hope to marry someday but parts of my heart were still guarded because of fear of not being good enough. But to her and her family i am Brian Zimmer, a man who wants to find meaning in life. Through dating her I have never felt so safe with not only her but also her family. God truly blessed me because when i am with them i feel as though i am part of the family. Thats the kind of peace i want everyone of color to feel, because no one should ever have the same scars and fears that i carried for 10 years of my life. I want my brother caleb to have the same peace, i want my beautiful sister abby to be free to date anyone of different races and not be judged. Because my siblings to me are my best friends and anyone who thinks they are not worthy enough truly have not sat down with them and see the same love that i see in each of them!