family

Besides sitting here and having to deal with a baby crying not stop I can say it has been an emotional plane ride. For tonight I get to see my family again after 2 and half months of not seeing them. Over and over in my head I am practicing how I am going to greet them. Months before when I was so nervous to accept going to YWAM I had a vision of me arriving at an airport and being greeted by my brother and my brother saying I am proud of you, but I had no clue what it meant. Seriously I would go back to my vision every time I tried talking myself out of going to YWAM. Well 2 an a half months later I am arriving in Houston and I get to see my family. I get to see my brother but instead of him greeting me and saying he is proud of me I am privileged to meet him and say I am proud of him. I am blessed to get the chance to see my beautiful sister Abby. I am honored to get to the best parents anyone could ask for. To be honest many times I have taken for granted what God has blessed me with, because I have not looked at everything through God’s eyes. I have been living in Tijuana, Mexico and let me tell you my life could be a lot worse. Down here poverty, oppression, and corruption are prevalent; but at the same time people down here seem happy. Families have found the true meaning of love. Well I am loved by each one of my family members, and I am the proudest brother because I have been impacted by my siblings. I had the privilege last night to tell Caleb what I thought about him and I still feel I did not say enough. I woke up this morning in tears because I am so looking forward to seeing and hugging Abby; I just pray I don’t squeeze her to death. I feel as though my life has been like a huge puzzle and at times I really questioned God because I could not understand why certain things happened. I questioned how he was going to make good out of such disastrous moments. But I can just picture God smiling and saying “ just wait Brian Zimmer, just wait” I picture him standing up and there being a huge puzzle representing my life, and God taking puzzle pieces and putting them back in the right place after many fell down in my life I thought. Only a perfect God could have and continue to show such precision and love in pruning my life. I am just sitting in awe of what my God has done for me and in my life. Everyone I get to see my family!! Maybe I sound out of control but that is ok, because I am so in love with my family. So I challenge whoever reads this to look at their life and the ones they love and just stand in awe of God. Do not try and figure him out but just say “Lord mold me and humble me, Lord you have my life and I trust you.” Now I know it is not always easy because I know there is brokenness in this world, but I know through faith that God will finish the work he started in every one of our lives. Tonight my vision comes true I get to see Caleb Jon Zimmer, a man who’s going to impact a generation but only through God’s grace.